Kagomelee, Kikyo and Kagome





我，桔梗和戈薇（Kagomelee）





我也不知道为何会想着写这样一篇文章，也许这就是我对内心的一点点的剖析吧。还请大家不要见怪哦^_^







我个人认为，我以前和桔梗有较多的相似之处。





桔梗生前是一个有着强大灵力的巫女，她有着纯洁的心灵，她的任务是保护村民，保护四魂之玉。正如桔梗在白灵山所说，她生前从未迷茫过，从未犯过错，她是一位聪明理性的强者。而我呢，从出生到现在，我已经明确了我此生的目的，那就是让我的父母亲人过得更好更快乐，用我的力量去帮助一些陷入困境的好人，他们所在的许多困境往往不是因为他们的错误造成的。这种目的也许可以和桔梗的相类比吧。桔梗一生几乎都在奉献，我也会向着我的目标奉献，因为我相信人生就在于此。





当桔梗喜欢上犬夜叉，后又以为犬夜叉背叛了她时，桔梗封印了犬夜叉，自己也随之死去。记得高三的时候，我的一位朋友问我，如果我的最爱的人背叛了我，我会怎么办，我当时的回答是-杀了他！也许无论是桔梗还是我，都比较理性，仅仅是“比较”！我们的内心也许都有过这样的想法：我们最喜欢忠诚的人！但是他对我忠诚一次，两次，三次…但这只能让我更相信他，这只是归纳，是似真推理，我们永远无法保证他下一次也会忠诚。可悲！我喜欢数学，喜欢推理和创造发明。桔梗这个强者也一定如此（我在后面还要分析）。我们知道人会迷茫，会变化，我甚至有过这样可怕的想法：没有一个人可以永远相信，因为人的思想往往太深邃了，太难以琢磨了。而世界上的许多坏人，许多外表作得很好的坏人，无一不在加深我的这种想法。桔梗生活在战国时代，她一定见到过比我所见更坏，更可怕的人！她当时和我那时一样也就没有问一问自己这样一个问题：我最爱的人会背叛我吗？





当桔梗“复活”，又一次见到犬夜叉时，是走是留？难以取舍呢。我也很喜欢犬夜叉，我想我能够体会桔梗的心情。



另外桔梗是一个理性的强者，我在前面提到了，我认为桔梗是贯穿全书的一条线。桔梗的几个所作所为，我想在这加以猜想：





1.把四魂之玉交给奈落 2. 被奈落杀掉时的镇静 3.对犬夜叉说的”当四魂之玉凑齐就是奈落的死期”



我提出一个符合所有事实的猜想:奈落现在最大的失误是他不知道桔梗给他四魂之玉的动机，知己知彼，他没有做到（虽然他已经做得很好了）。我估计：由于奈落也是半妖，犬夜叉可以通过四魂之玉变成人，奈落为何不会？四魂之玉有一半是翠子！不是仅仅可以增加妖力而已。桔梗她的所为，特别是那一句：等你搜齐四魂之玉之日，就是我送你下地狱之时。我想就是指这个。



我看到戈薇以后,我认为这个女孩心灵更纯洁,远胜于我.大家不妨看看漫画中的戈薇,无时无刻不在为他人着想,无怨恨之心,有感激之心,甚至允许犬夜叉心中有两个人,因为她站在桔梗和犬夜叉的立场出发,没有考虑自己可能将面临的痛苦。在自己差点死去，醒来后第一句也是对犬夜叉说对不起。我觉得她很伟大呢！



原来和桔梗相似的我更想在对人方面成为像戈薇一样的人呢，于是我还是把我的名字取为了Kagomelee。



这篇是我两年前写的文章，现加以修改，提出了红色部分的猜测。以下是我和犬夜叉漫画相识的过程：我用英文写的，由Rin-chan帮忙翻译的。



Appendix3





This appendix is for Rin-chan, one of my best friends in the Internet, as the emails I promised, to share our feelings and loves about the characters in Inuyasha and the bounty of having a chance to read it.











Time and Memory









One of my classmates told me about his experience on the last vacation when I arrived at school, enjoying the grandeur of Niagara Falls. "It's really gorgeous!" he said while calculatedly circumventing my envious eyes, "It's really deserved visiting and I'll probably never forget it, you know, when I got there and felt the power of the nature, the only consciousness that I carried was happiness and consternation.” he continued his topic without a sign of end, but I was called away. Yes, memories, how long will them last? I don't know, but time is bound to dilute it as what it has already done to all of ours if we don't do anything. Such a kind of rule is so whenever how reluctant we are, but this doesn't mean we can do nothing.









One day (about two years and three months ago), my younger sister and I met accidentally at my uncle's house. She carried one of the books of Inuyasha with her. “Wanna have a look?” she asked, “Okay!” yep, this reply made my acquaintance with Inuyasha.









“Hey, are you listening to me?" My classmate's voice disrupt my thought, “I'm sorry, I was absentminded. “Never mind.” he smiled and said, “I've got a present for you.” He opened his bag and gave me a book--Norwegian Wood. “It's written by a Japanese guy, I figured that you would like it.” “Thank you very much, Tony.” I smiled back although I had never heard of it before. Then, I began to read the preface: “I do need that time, though, for Naoko's face to appear. And as the years have passed, the time has grown longer. The sad truth is that what I could recall in five seconds all too soon needed ten, then thirty, and then a full minute-like shadows lengthening at dusk. Someday, I suppose, the shadows will be swallowed in darkness.” “Recall”, this word constrain me to return to the former ponder.









For the book was not the first one, I couldn't understand the content well, but I learned off the title-Inuyasha. After two months without a little attention to it, I went to the mainland to celebrate the Spring Festival with my relations where I met Inuyasha again, on the hogmanay of 2002.That day I bought 19 video records in a small grocery with great fortune for it was the only shop that sold Inuyasha at that time, and spent the whole night watching them. I envy those people who can forget the plot they've already made acquainted quickly for reabsorbing in the process of watching or reading is a lavish enjoyment just as the process I experienced that day, one of my happiest days.









　









When I was in the middle school, I met Ranma, also a character portrayed by Rumiko, whom I thought I liked after a few books reading. But that kind of feeling disappeared quickly just as rubeola in a child. Even so, there were inevitable some reasons that caused the affection.







　









At that early night, I acted as a beholder watching the story of Inuyasha without an obsession with it. Then something crouched in my mind emerged out, my core values on love which were aroused by the loyal and devotional spirits in both Inuyasha and Kagome. Now I figured that I fully understand the instant feeling about Ranma – he shares some similarities with Inuyasha albeit they are not enough to me. Then, gradually, I take my roll as Kagome because I’ve found the man I have been longing for.











I felt a little hungry, and then I stood up, headed to a deli nearby for some food. On my way there, I met Mandparn. “Hi!” he grinned and asked, supposedly pretending to be debonair. “Hi.” I replied with a deadpan and then got away. “Lee, why are you so inhospitable to him?” Katerla halted me and said. “Really? Inhospitable? Maybe I don’t like these dandies like him.” “Oh, he it not that bad, you know, he…” “…has changed 3 girl friends, right?” I cut in, “ Well, it’s true but… yeah, I know you, how about YOUR Inuyasha?” “ He is FINE, thank you.” We joked with happiness. She is one of my best friends and she knows me well. Then I found myself a seat, sat down in the shafts of sunshine and continued my thought in the postcard images of spring.







I was not a sentimental person. My tears seldom welled up because of novels and movies, but that time, when I saw that Inuyasha was going to give up his love on Kagome to protect Kikyo, I cried. I cried like a sap even all my friends came and asked me what was wrong. And, of course, I began to adore Kagome for she carries such a kind of heart that can permit two women simultaneously existing in Inuyasha’s heart, and I also benefited a lot from her that are honorable, useful and that enlightened me on devotion, and that helped me established some of my core values.









“Five seconds, ten, and thirty …” I read this sentence again, and I knew that I differed most from the author when it came to managing our memories. I tended to be positive while the author seemed to be more negative. To me, there certainly exit laws to rule our memories, to strengthen them, and to etch them in our cerebra. Association and repetition are two of them, and above all, you need constant desire and determination to memorize what you want to remember. I thought that there was no need to explain repetition for nearly all of us had suffered rote. A clue can help us especially when it is ridiculous or logical. For example, the word “cornucopia” is hard to bear in mind just by repetition, but if we recognize that “cornucopia” is similar to “corn + copious (=abundant)”, we will easily learn it by heart. Another typical example is a learning method in scientific study. If we know the logical structure of the theory, which shows the deductive or inductive process of it, it will be much easier for us to recall the whole theory. The last thing that I want to accentuate is that desire and determination are prerequisite, which means that if any of them is lost, no effect will exist at all.











Let’s come back to my experience that day. Wind blew then, which brought me the smell of soil of the grove behind and soothed and filled me. I love wind, not only because it’s a part of nature, but it has some connection with Inuyasha. Yes, he always uses wind as blade and dog is also the proxy for wind in an ancient legend.











After I finished all the books of Inuyasha I could find, I stepped up to the Internet where I found both the latest chapters and people who were like me—we were all taken fancy by the manga. Every time I logged into Inuyashabbs or Popgo, I could feel a kind of abandon, dainty abandon, which also leaded me to a bit of violent emotion and confusion when I logged out. In fact, those Inuyasha fans in the internet are also doing the same thing—continuously reinforcing their memories no matter they are conscious or not.







Maybe this kind of leaping style has made you troubled, I’m not too thrilled either, because the content that can be written down is too much, so much that I can’t reveal them all in this little appendix and some of it is only for me. I just want to show you my attitude towards memories, especially about Inuyasha—we can resist the dilution to our memories derived from time although it sounds surreal. If you still don’t believe it, please ask me any questions about Inuyasha 20 years later, you can be assured of satisfactory answers.






                                     Kagomelee










                                     Monday, April 26, 2004